Waves.

Depression – like many other emotions – comes in waves. Sometimes you feel like you are going to make it to shore, then a wave comes and throws you under. You saw it coming, but you didn’t think it would hit you so hard that you can’t even catch your breath.

You feel like you are drowning. Gasping for air at every chance you get to recover. In moments you’re choking on your own tears because the wave hit you so hard. 

And once you finally catch your breath, you see how far back the waves have taken you. It seems that you are always so close, but you just can’t seem to make it. The waves just keep pulling you back. 

Deeper. And deeper in the distance.

Back to what seems like the beginning. 

The shore seems so far away now. The more waves that come, the more you feel like you are falling into the current. The more it feels like you will never make it to shore. 

But the thing about waves is that eventually they rest. They eventually calm. 

You will eventually make it.

I have felt these waves far too many times, and continue to feel them. They don’t ever seem go away. Because waves have no measure of your time. They come expected or not. 

You can’t sit or wait through a wave and expect nothing to happen, you have to swim through them. You have to swim under them to get over them. The more you try to fight them and push them away the deeper they will sink you. Waves have no boundaries. Depression has no boundaries. Depression can drown you like the waves of the ocean, but only if you allow them. 

These waves of emotions will all come to a calm, but they won’t always stay calm. The waves are never easy. They are never light, but they do soften. They will come to a calm. Take in that calm. Just like you take in every breath and every scent of the ocean. Take in that calm and find your peace in the moments. Find your peace to get you through the waves. For the waves will keep coming, but your peace will guide you through.